It had been years since
Rupert Giles woke instantly, alert and eager to
begin the day. Oh, if he were in danger he could; that instinct was
honed to too sharp an edge to be blunted by age, illness or boredom...
but nowadays, unemployed and drifting through a life that had once been
mapped out in straight lines, sleep was too seductive a haven to leave
willingly.
So he woke gradually, his mind clinging to dreams, sleep clinging to
eyelids - woke to find himself hard and aching. This wasn’t the usual
transient arousal that left him before he’d stumbled, yawning, to the
bathroom. This was need, pure and primal, and he half smiled as he
pushed back the covers, his hand moving downwards automatically, his
eyes still shut.
Before his fingers could curl around his cock and discipline its unruly
behaviour with a stern, merciless, hypocritical hand, the bed creaked
and dipped as a weight -no, two weights - landed on it. Giles gasped,
his eyes opening, his hands reaching out. Reaching out blindly. A hand
was laid across his eyes even as they opened, warm and firm, and his
gasp was swallowed by lips pressed against his in a kiss. That alone
might not have prevented him from lashing out, but the cool hand around
his cock and the tongue and mouth that lapped and licked at the
captured flesh was.
Giles lay quietly, his mind as busy as the mouths that touched his
body, responding to the kiss, moving his hips in subtle encouragement,
trying to guess who his early morning visitors were. The one kissing
him was male. It wasn’t the mild rasp of a chin that needed shaving
that told him; that confirmed it perhaps, it was the roughness of the
hand, the faint scent of aftershave... half a dozen clues that led to
one answer. The mouth that was enthusiastically and expertly taking
care of his problem and being far too kind to that wayward member -
that was male. Giles could tell the difference. It was a lesson once
learned, never forgotten. The mouth was cool. Very cool. Refreshingly
so - “Spike! What the hell are you doing?” Giles roared.
Fully awake, he pushed the figure beside him away and glared down at
pale hair, a pale face and impish blue eyes. Spike tried to speak with
his mouth full, frowned, and reluctantly sat up, one hand still wrapped
around the base of Giles’ cock. “Saying hello,” he replied. “I’ve
missed you.”
Giles stared at him coldly until Spike’s hand fell away, and then
turned to meet the eyes of - “Wesley? Oh, God. Wesley. No! Don’t kiss
me again.”
Wesley looked disappointed but sat back obediently. He and Spike were
both naked and as much as Giles was seething with fury and
embarrassment, he couldn’t help wishing that his revelation had been
delayed by, oh another thirty seconds, perhaps. It would have made
thinking clearly much easier for a start.
He reached for the covers he’d pushed away and hesitated. Spike was
sitting on them, but that wasn’t what made him change his mind. He had
wanted the reassurance and subtle superiority conferred on one who is
clothed in the presence of one - or two - who were naked. That wasn’t
going to apply here. The two of them seemed indifferent to their lack
of clothing; completely relaxed and unlikely to care if he were under
the sheets or not. In fact, his action might be seen as shyness and
therefore a weakness.
On the other hand, Giles was uncomfortably aware that his body was, in
appearance if not fact in the case of Spike, two decades older than
Wesley’s and Spike’s. It showed. He repressed the urge to suck in his
slight paunch and forced his eyes to stop moving between two equally
enticing bodies. This wasn’t Wimbledon.
Besides, looking made his other problem worse. He was hard and if he
felt ridiculous now, he’d look even more so with his erection poking
up, the sheet draped over it, completely failing to disguise it.
Giles folded his arms across his chest, sat up straight and said
quietly, “Wesley. The last I heard, you were off freelancing and
killing demons. Why are you here and why, might I ask, have you
unchained Spike from my bathtub?”
He couldn’t help the injured tone that crept into his voice at the end.
Watcherly solidarity alone should have stopped Wesley from releasing a
prisoner, especially one clearly dangerous.
Wesley looked at Spike as though seeking reassurance and Giles felt his
temper flare. What the hell was Wesley doing with Spike? They’d never
met during Wesley’s time in Sunnydale; how could they be on such good
terms now?
“Giles,” Wesley began slowly, “if I tell you something that common
sense indicates is impossible, and all your instincts and beliefs
agree; if I ask you to believe that what I am about to tell you -”
“Sometime next week, at this rate,” interrupted Spike. “Giles. Look at
him, at us. Do we look different?”
Giles frowned. “You’re a vampire,” he said, with some asperity. “You
can’t look different.” He glanced at Wesley, peering in the dim light
that was filtering through heavy curtains. Wesley reached out and
switched on the lamp beside the bed. In the sudden flare of light Giles
saw what he should have seen at once. “You’re... older. How? It’s only
been six months and you’re...”
His voice trailed away as he looked Wes over, taking in the shorter
hair, thinner face...half a year could have produced those changes, but
there was more than that. Wesley had grown up. The young man who had
been laughable as a replacement Watcher now looked fully capable of
dealing with that, or any other, responsibility. He looked - like me,
Giles thought. He looks like me. He’s killed, he’s tortured, he’s
sacrificed lives to get what he thought was needed. Welcome to the
club, mate. Aloud he said, “That scar, Wesley; by the way it’s healed
you acquired it some time ago but I don’t remember it.”
Wesley’s hand went to his throat and rubbed the scar. “You haven’t seen
it because it wasn’t there. Yet I...acquired it many years ago.”
He looked at Giles expectantly and Spike snorted. “This isn’t Twenty
bloody Questions, Wes!” He flicked his gaze over to pierce Giles.
“We’re from the future. Wes is out there slaying rogue demons -”
“You know, I really can’t recall a time I ever laughed at that joke,”
Wesley said pointedly.
“- and I’m trying to get comfy in your bath, right this minute, but
that’s not the us you’re talking to. Bloody hell, even I don’t
understand it; makes my head ache... but it’s true.”
Giles waited a beat for Wesley to start laughing, or for Spike to crack
and admit that this was all some elaborate, tacky joke. They looked at
him expectantly instead and he felt anger rise. He’d stayed on the bed
as they talked, frozen into place by shock and wariness coupled with
confusion and arousal; cuffed hand and foot by emotion. Now rage gave
him the strength to break his shackles and he surged forward, well
placed punches and kicks combined with an undignified scramble that let
him reach the door. He was at the foot of the stairs by the time they
began to follow and at the bathroom door before they could stop him.
Spike lay in the bathtub, sleeping soundly. Giles raised a shaking hand
to his head, dragging his hand through sleep-tangled hair. Spike’s
eyelids fluttered open and he yawned, glaring at Giles.
“Brought me some breakfast?” He took in Giles’ lack of clothing and
looked surprised and then knowing. “Or are you the -”
“Finish that thought and I’ll stake you and wash you down the
plughole,” Giles snarled.
“Fuck off then and let me get some kip. Taken me all night to get to
sleep and now you’re waking me up at this ungodly hour...”
Giles turned away from the list of complaints and stared at Wesley and
Spike - the other Spike - who were standing on the stairs watching him.
He rubbed his bare eyes, knowing that donning his glasses wouldn’t
change what he saw. Walking with the careful precision of a drunk, he
went back to his bedroom, his two visitors leading the way in silence.
***
Once back in his bedroom, Giles reached for his robe and shrugged it
on, tying the belt with a savage tug. “Why are you both naked?” he
asked irritably, knowing it was inconsequential but not caring.
“It makes the time/space transition simpler,” Wesley said. “Forgive me,
but does that mean you accept that what we’re saying is the truth?” He
ran a finger tentatively over his cheekbone, where a reddening bruise
marked the spot where Giles’ fist had landed.
“No,” Giles said flatly. “I can think of far more probable explanations
and I’m still half asleep.”
“Go on then,” Spike said, a challenging gleam in his eyes. He sat down
on the bed and looked up at Giles, smiling and relaxed. Giles weighed
the choice of Spike remaining naked or Spike wearing - or refusing to
wear- clothes that Giles would then feel obliged to give away once
returned. Neither were attractive options. Wesley, he felt sure, would
welcome the chance to get dressed. He looked at him. Wesley was leaning
against a wall, slouched and yet alert. Giles tried to remember any
time in their relationship when Wesley hadn’t stood as if the hanger
had been left in his coat, and failed. He wasn’t quite sure why it was
bothering him so much; they’d just told him they were time travellers
and he was obsessing over a few square feet of bare flesh? Refusing to
dwell on this, as he was fairly certain he knew the answer and equally
certain that he wouldn’t admit it under torture, he said,
“You could be shape changing demons or using a glamour to trick me; I
could be hallucinating or this might be a trick of Ethan’s. There. Four
perfectly reasonable explanations, all of which strain credulity far
less than the story you’d have me swallow.”
Swallow. That had been an ill chosen choice of word given his recent
awakening. He wasn’t hard anymore but the ghost of cool lips seemed to
press against his body in a dozen places and he felt himself react to
the memory as though it were reality. Grateful for the swathing,
concealing folds of his ragged but beloved robe, Giles walked over to
the bed and sat down on it, as far as possible from Spike, and folded
his arms, staring stubbornly at the wall in an effort to calm himself
and indicate his displeasure.
“I can appreciate that this is a lot to take in but it’s not as if
stranger things haven’t happened to all of us,” Wesley said mildly,
persuasively.
Giles ignored him, still staring, still doing his best to pretend he
was alone.
“For fuck’s sake!” Spike exclaimed. “Rupert, will you look at him - at
us? Sod whether we’re in top hat and tails or stark bollock naked,
aren’t you even a little curious as to why we came back?”
“Not really,” Giles said pleasantly, turning his head slightly as it
occurred to him that not keeping them in view was a little risky. “To
harbour that emotion would be tantamount to accepting that what you
told me would be genuine. And Spike? You’re not entitled to use my
first name. We’re not friends, now, then or ever.”
He waited for an angry answer, a scornful smile. In the last few days
he’d had a bellyful of both from his houseguest. Instead, unmistakable
hurt clouded the blue eyes and Spike glanced downwards quickly, ducking
his head to hide his reaction. Giles felt guilt stir, but before it
could fully waken, Wes kicked it into a state of dazed confusion.
“Giles, I’d appreciate it if you didn’t talk to Spike like that. I
understand that in this time he’s -”
“A killer? A troublemaker? A viper-tongued pain in the arse who’s been
here for three days too many and is making my life hell?”
“Now you’re making me feel all misty-eyed,” Spike muttered.
Wesley shook his head impatiently. “Yes, very probably he was -is-
but the person you’re addressing your comments to isn’t like that, and
hasn’t been for a long time. In fact -”
“Remember what Fred said,” Spike warned. “Tell him nothing you don’t
have to.”
“He has to know this! You’ve admitted I’m older, changed, but you
haven’t looked at Spike. Look at him, Giles. Really look...”
Wesley was standing now, his vehement voice loud in the small room.
Giles shook his head wearily and glanced at Spike, looking him up and
down and then shrugging. “Vampire. Ageless, not prone to scar - he’s
the same as - as the version in my bath. Hair’s a little fluffier,
perhaps.” Giles mentally castigated himself for coming so close to
saying, ‘my Spike’. That just wouldn’t have helped matters.
Spike reflexively smoothed back his hair and Wesley growled out an
impatient, adult rated version of ‘tcha!’ Two steps and he was beside
Giles, kneeling down so that their faces were level. “I told you to
look at him. You’re a Watcher; you’ve seen vampires by the score;
twisted, hollowed, emptied of humanity and then filled with evil. Look
at him and tell me he’s one of them.”
Reluctantly, Giles turned and Spike met his gaze steadily. Giles would
have smiled politely if someone had discoursed on auras and expected
him to be interested, and the idea of eyes being windows to the souls
would have merited a twitch of lips determined not to be rude. He
stared not into the blue eyes but instead at Spike’s face, adding up a
dozen subtle movements and changes automatically, trying to fight back
an unease that tasted like a missing step and a muscle-wrenching tumble
to his mind. Spike was calmer, smoothed down, less abrasive... a
certain plangent tension had been released...
“I’ll save you the agony of looking at my face,” Spike said. “Got me a
soul. Nice, well-anchored, permanent soul. Way better than Angel’s. And
I got it by myself, too. On purpose.”
Giles bit his lip, welcoming the sharp, small pain as an anchor in a
sea of confusion. Fighting to stay calm, he glanced over at Wesley, who
was smiling with a certain grim satisfaction, one dark eyebrow raised
as he waited for Giles’ reaction. It came with a flat certainty.
“Bollocks.”
“Oh, come now!” Wesley said, his temper rising as Giles’ jaw set
stubbornly. “I assure you it’s true. Spike has a soul and he’s been
fighting alongside the Slayer and ... others for quite some time.”
“Save it, Wes,” Spike interrupted, a sour look on his face as he glared
at Giles. “I’d forgotten what a stubborn bastard you used to... well,
no, what am I saying? You’re still fucking stubborn in our time, that’s
why we’re here.”
“Spike...” Wesley said, a warning note in his voice.
Giles stood up, shaking his head as though he was under attack from a
cloud of midges. “Enough!” His voice rang out loudly and he heard a
muffled call from downstairs as an awakened and puzzled Spike demanded
to know what was happening. “Enough,” he said again, moderating his
voice without lessening the edge. “Tell me what you want; why you’re
here. Tell me what’s behind this ... scheme. Tell me and make it good
because I’m out of patience with the pair of you.” He reached into the
drawer of the bedside table and pulled out a stake, turning back to
stare pointedly at Spike’s chest.
Spike stood in front of him and smiled coldly. “Sorry about this,
Giles.” His face shifted and reformed, his fangs forcing his mouth open
in a snarl. “Get on the bed.”
Giles sneered at him. “You’re still chipped, I presume. Make me.” He
raised the stake and waited, half sorry that it had come to this.
Spike stood still for long enough for Giles to play back his words and
realise that a vampire who’d acquired a soul might well have managed to
lose a -
“Oh, bloody hell!”
The stake was batted aside and Giles was thrown backwards, landing on
his bed with a crack of skull on headboard. Spike straddled him,
grinning down, and took Giles’ hand. He brought it up to his mouth and
ran one finger over a fang, the scarlet blood oozing out of the neat
cut in ruby beads. Tongue went where fangs had gone and Giles shuddered
as he hardened despite himself. Spike’s eyes were full of heat, full of
hunger, full of...
“He probably keeps the cuffs in a shoe box in the closet,” Spike said
over his shoulder. “He always did at home, before I came along and they
became a permanent fixture on the bed.”
Giles shut his eyes as sick humiliation swept over him in a scalding
flood. He bucked upwards, uncaring of the fact that Spike could feel
his reaction to what had just happened. Spike laughed, his hands
gripping Giles’ wrists and holding him down. Silently, Wes snapped
cuffs on wrists and attached them to the bedposts.
Spike said tersely, “Chip’s gone too. Got that? Soul, yes, vampire,
yes, chip, no. You asked why we’re here. Wrong question. Ask us who we
are. Ask us.”
Wesley sat beside them, his arm thrown over Spike’s shoulders. They
stared down at Giles, waiting.
He shrugged in a defeat only partially assumed and obediently asked the
question. “Who are you?”
“We’re yours,” Spike said simply.
“My, what?”
Spike sighed and bent down. Giles flinched and turned his head and
Spike growled and held his face between his hands. “Not making this
easy, are you?”
“Fuck off.”
Spike released him, springing off the bed in a frustrated flurry of
movement and slamming his fist against the wall. Giles craned his head
and met Wesley’s disappointed face. “What?” he snarled. “What do you
expect me to -?”
Wesley didn’t make him feel as threatened as Spike. That was probably
the only reason that Wes managed to do what Spike had not; get Giles to
hold still long enough to be kissed. Giles couldn’t help it. Once
Wesley’s mouth was on his, he was lost. The whole scenario was so
dream-like; his arousal carrying over from sleep to waking and still
not satisfied... it was so easy to give in and let Wesley kiss him...
Wesley pulled away, his eyes glazed. “Does that answer your question?”
Giles stared at him. “We - all of us - are lovers?”
Wesley shrugged. “It’s a little more complicated than that but
essentially, yes. We have been for, ah, some time now.”
Giles turned his head. Spike was flexing his bruised hand and scowling.
Giles cleared his throat. “Spike? I... I’m still having considerable
difficulty in processing this but if I’ve...”
“Hurt my feelings? Don’t be soft.”
Spike’s voice was brittle and Giles winced. “Fine. Sulk. Do you do this
often?” He turned to Wesley. “Does he?”
The amused look on Wesley’s face was answer enough. “He does and it’s
usually because of you. I spend most of my time playing peacemaker.”
Spike came over to Wesley, dropping to his knees beside the bed and
kissing him swiftly. “You spend all your time getting fussed over, you
mean,” he said fondly. He glanced at Giles. “You and me... we’ve got a
history, you see. Wes didn’t meet me until... after. Makes a
difference. Wish I could convince you that things have changed but I
don’t know how.”
Wesley looked between them both and then shifted on the bed, making
room for Spike. “Why don’t you try what I did?” he suggested.
Spike looked at Giles, a question in his eyes. Giles tried not to react
but Spike must have seen something change - a spark of curiosity, a
hint of warmth, because he placed his hands flat on the bed and kissed
Giles. The kiss was gentle, almost chaste and Giles found himself
tugging to free his hands so that he could deepen it. The cuffs dug
into his wrists and he pulled back. Spike tilted his head and sighed
with satisfaction. “Been so long... Giles...”
Then Giles didn’t have to do more than respond because Spike was
kissing him with a force and an ardour that drove everything from his
mind, his hands sweeping up to hold Giles’ face, then sliding inside
his robe. If the kiss was meant to convince him that Spike and he had a
history, it was succeeding admirably well, Giles thought. Then he felt
another pair of hands on him and remembered Wesley...
Their positions were reversed but the sensations they were drawing from
his body were no less intense than they had been earlier. Giles moaned
against Spike’s mouth and then broke the kiss to gasp for air as Wesley
took his cock inside his mouth after a series of teasing licks. Wesley
was good at this, he thought hazily. No; more than that. Wesley was
giving him exactly what he wanted, his fingers curled around the base
of Giles’ cock, his thumb sweeping up just as he raised his head to run
along the underside, his tongue swirling in strong circles, his teeth
there but not digging in. Just how I like it, Giles thought, and if he -
Wesley’s free hand was kneading Giles’ thigh, moving higher as Giles
reached the point where his cock hardened still further, just about to
come. Wesley’s hand slid under his balls, cupping them in his palm,
while his middle finger went back, nudging gently but firmly, the touch
too intimate, too casual, too unerringly accurate to be the first time
he’d done it. Wesley didn’t do more than that but it was enough. Giles
came, feeling Spike’s arms around him as he arched up off the bed,
feeling himself slip from Wesley’s mouth and Wesley move up to hold
him.
Panting, he opened his eyes. Two smiling faces swam in front of him.
Even as he tried to think of something to say, Spike glanced over at
Wesley and slid his arm around his neck, pulling him in for a kiss.
Giles watched them from a distance of inches, seeing his own come
glisten on Wes’ lips, seeing Spike’s tongue lap at it greedily. Giles
felt a tremor of panic. What the hell was happening here? Wesley and
Spike were, not surprisingly, hard and he was damned if they were going
to fuck practically in his lap while he lay helpless.
Giles cleared his throat and said, “I have a question.”
They split apart and looked at him. “Sorry,” said Wesley. “Can it -”
“Wait?” finished Spike, running the edge of his fingernail from
Wesley’s throat down to his flat stomach.
“No, it bloody well can’t!” Giles snapped. “Spike, you said you,” he
swallowed, “knew where I kept these cuffs.”
“Yeah, and I was right, wasn’t I?”
“Yes. And did you notice that you had to adjust them when you so kindly
used them on me?”
“So?”
Wesley broke in. “You’re saying you used them on someone, rather than
being the one inside?”
Giles smiled and let that answer the question.
Spike looked uncomfortable and Giles noted the fact without commenting.
“Yeah, well, that’s not surprising, is it?”
“Not to me, it isn’t, no,” Giles said. “You might be able to convince
me that the three of us are engaged in what seems like an unnecessarily
complicated relationship, but you’re never going to convince me that
I’d let you - either of you - top me.” He smiled again, making no
effort to appear pleasant. “Which means this -” he jerked his head at
the cuffs, “isn’t the way we normally play.”
“And?” Wesley said, with some bravado and little sense.
Giles let the smile drop from his face and stared at first Wes, then
Spike, without speaking. Then he raised his eyebrows and said quietly,
“I’m waiting.”
Spike shuddered. “Don’t do that!” he said
plaintively.
Giles looked at him thoughtfully. “What do I normally do to you when
you misbehave, Spike?”
Spike’s eyes sparkled. “Depends.”
“When I’m really angry,” Giles clarified.
The amusement vanished and Spike’s eyes dropped. Wesley reached out to
him, stroking his back. “You’ve already done it,” he said, his voice
cool. “It’s why we’re here.”
Giles frowned. “What did I do? And why?”
“You fucking left us!” Spike shouted, scrambling off the bed as though
he couldn’t bear to be close to Giles. “You buggered off and left us
and we haven’t seen you for months. Do you know how that feels? Being
abandoned?”
Giles fought back guilt over something he hadn’t even done yet and
looked at Wesley for help. “Why did I?” he said again.
Wesley sighed. “Because of this,” he said and went into game face,
fangs and ridges and golden eyes...
Giles said weakly, “But...you’re warm...” and then leaned back,
defeated. “Can I wake up now?” he said. “Please?”
Wesley stared at him anxiously. It wasn’t an expression that seemed to
fit a vampire somehow and Giles felt a bubble of amusement,
inappropriate and ill-timed, swell and burst in his chest. He bit his
lip and looked silently at Wes.
“You’re entitled to an explanation but it’s the end of a rather long
story and I’m not sure how much of it I can tell you,” Wesley said
finally. “I’m sure you appreciate the paradoxes inherent in this.”
Spike sighed with impatience. “We’ve come back and we can’t tell him
why? Makes no fucking sense.” He held up a hand as Wesley began to
protest. “Yes, I know what I just said about not telling him, but I’ve
changed my mind. I didn’t get it when Fred burbled on about changing
things, and don’t you start in on it either. If we changed it, we
already did, right? So let’s do it and catch up.”
Giles knew exactly what both of them meant and found himself wondering
which viewpoint was correct. Time travel paradoxes had featured in so
many books, but it was all theoretical of course. He found himself
locked in indecision. He had no doubt that he could get a full account
from them both, by a combination of threats and cunning, but did he
want to? Would he literally regret it in the future?
Wesley and Spike were hissing fierce questions at each other, speaking
in the shorthand lovers are adept at, that was as baffling as it was
annoying. Wesley had reverted to his human face, which was making Giles
wonder if he’d really seen - oh, he must have been dreaming! A few
familiar names were mentioned, bringing with them an unconscious leap
of relief that they had survived at least a few years more, but Giles
found himself floundering to make sense of it all. It wasn’t an emotion
he enjoyed.
“That will do,” he said. Two heads turned and he smiled pleasantly. “If
I’m to be told anything, I insist that it be done when we’re all
dressed, free to move, and with something to drink. I haven’t had
breakfast yet. I’m hungry.”
“We don’t have time for that,” Spike said. “Could get pulled back any
moment.”
“Fred guaranteed us at least three hours,” Wesley objected. “She’s
utterly reliable when it comes to this sort of thing.”
‘She’? Giles adjusted his thinking. A nickname or shortened form of a
name. It didn’t seem important. “Three hours? Then please get on with
it!” He let his voice harden appreciably and was gratified by Wesley’s
reaction. The man didn’t flinch but he came to attention and began to
reach for the cuffs that held Giles in place.
Spike’s hand flashed out and locked around Wesley’s wrist. “Hold it.
This isn’t your Giles; this is the guy who stakes vampires first and
doesn’t bother with questions. He thinks you’re evil.”
“No, I don’t,” Giles objected. “Wesley is warm to the touch and,” he
felt almost embarrassed but it had to be said, “he’s souled. I can tell
by looking at him. I wouldn’t stake either of you until I’d heard you
out, probably not then.” Regaining his composure, he glared at Spike.
“The fact that a version of you is currently hogging my bathroom,
should prove that I’m not stake-happy!”
“That’s wonderful,” Wesley said gently, resting his hand on Giles’ leg,
“but we still haven’t established how much -”
“Oh for fuck’s sake!” Spike exploded. “Tell him, or I will, and if our
grandfathers die, so what?”
“After you get these cuffs off,” Giles said, not letting a trace of
compromise enter his voice. Spike growled and freed him, muttering dire
warnings under his breath as he did so.
Giles flexed his arms, settled down comfortably, tugging the quilt over
him, and gave Wesley an expectant look.
“Right. Well, as you know, I set off on my own. After some time, my
path crossed that of Angel and Cordelia and I joined their ...”
Wesley’s voice flowed like wine poured with a lavish hand; sometimes
steady, sometimes gushing out too fast as emotion robbed him of
precision, finally slowing as the last words reluctantly fell from his
lips. Giles listened, the urge to interrupt fading as shock and sorrow
struck him dumb. So much to take in....
Finally, Wesley fell silent. “I can’t - Giles, are you coping with all
this? You’re so quiet...”
Giles stared at him. “You’ve told me things - deaths, loss -
terrible things. I’m finding it a little hard to accept.”
“Suck it up, Giles,” Spike said, his tone kinder than his words. Giles
glanced down and realised that at some point Spike had taken his hand
and he’d been gripping it tightly, their fingers interlaced. He took
his hand away, but did it after an almost involuntary squeeze of
acknowledgment.
Giles’ gaze moved around the room. “All this... gone?”
“I died, too,” Spike reminded him. “And Anya.” His eyes went distant
for a moment and then he shrugged. “But I came back.”
Giles looked at him. “You seem solid for a ghost. So; you were all
employed by the law firm?”
Wesley nodded. “Things were difficult at first. We didn’t realise quite
why, of course. Angel was distant, Spike a ghost ... then it all got
resolved very quickly. So much so that I think we were all a little
stunned for a long time.”
“A feeling I can fully sympathise with,” Giles remarked. “So, what
happened?”
“Cordelia woke up,” said Spike. “And she wasn’t happy.”
Giles frowned. “She was in a coma, I got that, but you never quite
explained why.”
“Until she woke up, we didn’t know why, not really,” Wesley replied.
“Angel had arranged for our memories to be affected; similar, I
imagine, to the spell used to create the false memories of Dawn.”
“Dawn...” Giles murmured. “You know, that’s the most difficult part of
this for me. Buffy with a sister...”
“I can imagine,” Wesley said. “It’s decidedly unnerving to have one’s
memories tampered with. What can one trust?”
“Speed it up,” urged Spike. “Cordelia woke up, still a higher power or
whatever - never got that bit - and went spare. Rocked the building,
she screamed so loud. Never seen Angel move so fast.”
“Why?” Giles asked curiously.
“Was screaming his name, wasn’t she? He went in there and didn’t come
out for hours. When he did, he got us all together and she reversed the
spell. People threw things - ”
“<i>You</i> threw things,” Wesley said, giving Spike an
affectionate hug. “I was impressed. What was it? Two pencils and a cell
phone?”
“Huh. Feelings were running high and you can’t deny it. Anyway, she
laid it on the line. Connor was to stay where he was. Lad was happy and
she was watching him. Angel got offered a choice; turn human, or stay a
souled vampire with no catches.”
“Really? Which did he choose?”
“Brooded for ages; you know what he’s like -”
“Only too well.”
“But he’s learned some sense in his old age -”
“Meaning?”
“He asked Buffy. They’re still discussing it. He’s with her in England
at the Watchers Academy, helping her train the new Slayers.”
Giles waved a vague hand. “I feel like a soggy sponge. Finish telling
me. I cannot believe I’m doing this before breakfast.” He gave then
both a resentful look. “I still think I’m dreaming this.”
“Want me to convince you we’re here?” Spike said, his voice as
insinuating as his fingers. Wesley smiled and moved closer and Giles
sank back as they began to kiss him, Wesley capturing his mouth, Spike
pulling back the covers and running a line of kisses over Giles’
stomach. He yelped as Giles grabbed him by the hair and tugged hard,
breaking free of Wesley’s kiss as he did so.
“Do you bloody well mind?” he said. “We just - and I’m not - ”
“So?” said Spike, looking puzzled.
“You are,” Wesley said at the same time, with a slight smile.
Giles rolled his eyes. “Keep your distance and finish this improbable,
implausible tale. Please.”
“Oh, fine! Cordelia made me solid. Said I’d earned it for saving the
world -”
“Every time you say that, I get a sharp, stabbing pain behind my left
eye,” Giles said. “You just don’t strike me as the world saving type.”
“Helped stop Acathla,” Spike said succinctly, with a look that dared
Giles to argue. “Anyway, she did the job and I stuck around to help
out, as Angel had done a runner. Everyone paired off one way or
another; Fred with a nerd, Gunn with Little Miss Sparky -”
“Who - oh, forget it. What about Cordelia? Did she go back to heaven?
Or hell?”
Spike snorted. “Did she, buggery! Who do you think’s running the show
now? Should see her power dressing, doing lunch with Harmony, getting
heads chopped off - ”
“Queen C,” Giles murmured.
Wesley looked startled. “Her personalised number plate? I’d forgotten
that!” He looked wistful. “Simpler days.”
“I’m starting to think so,” Giles said tartly. “Which leaves me with a
thousand questions but I’ll settle for three, if you give me clear,
short answers.”
They nodded, Wesley cautiously, Spike impatiently, and he took a slow
breath before speaking, his gaze flicking between the two waiting faces.
“Why are you a vampire, Wesley? Spike, when did our relationship begin?
And finally, what did you hope to achieve by coming back here?”
“I memorised lottery numbers for the next three weeks for nothing?”
Spike said. “that's all you want to know? Typical.”
A/N And here it ends. Why this story, out of all the many, is one I
couldn't finish, I don't know. Maybe because it got Jossed, or I was
working on another Spike/Giles/Wes...
Maybe one day.